Aien Hisyam

– hidup adalah tempat belajar –

Ester Indahyani

Kalau Helai Rambut Belum Jatuh

 

 

Ia baru tiga bulan menikah ketika kerusuhan Mei 1998 membara. Seperti lintah, peristiwa itu jadi kenangan buruk dalam ingatan.

 

Seorang teman datang padanya sambil menangis. Adiknya diperkosa beramai-ramai di jalan tol. Ia etnis Tionghoa, seperti Ester yang duduk tertegun di depannya.

Di lain hari, wanita ayu berkulit kuning langsat ini mendengar penuturan jujur dokter ginekologi. Lebih dari 5 pasiennya dirawat dalam kondisi menyedihkan, alat kelaminnya (maaf) rusak berat dan ada yang rahimnya ‘berantakan’. Semua keturunan Cinta, dan mengalami saat bumi Indonesia dihantam tragedi Mei 1998.

Ester jadi sulit tidur. Dia marah dan menangis. Belum lagi memikirkan saudara-saudaranya se-etnis yang mati hangus terbakar di dalam rumah dan toko. Spontan didirikannya LSM Solidaritas Nusa Bangsa (SNB).

“LSM itu alat perjuangan. Kalau SNB itu alat untuk penghapusan diskriminasi rasial. Jadi kenapa di SNB, aku dan teman-teman lain berjalan untuk tujuan itu,” kata wanita yang terlahir dengan nama Sim Ai Ling.

Sempat Menolak

Hampir 9 tahun Ester berjuang. “tapi ‘berhenti’ dimana-mana,” ucapnya, mengeluh.

“Secara hukum pemerkosaan itu sulit (dibuktikan). Tetapi secara umum, kasusnya ini pelanggaran berat HAM, itu jelas bisa dibuktikan. Terbukti rentetan kejadian lain jelas sekali mengarah ke satu gerakan kejahatan yang sistematis yang luas. Waktu di Komnas (Komisi Nasional) kita mendata ledakannya di lebih 50 titik lokasi. SNB dan YPHI (Yayasan Pengkajian Hukum Indonesia)  mendata lagi di 80 titik ledakan sosial. Jadi ada pola yang jelas kerusuhannya,” lanjutnya.

Sebelumnya, Ester staf Lembaga Bantuan Hukum (LBH) Jakarta. Ia gadis peranakan Tionghoa yang berpikiran maju. Seperti orangtuanya, Immanuel Jusuf yang guru, dan Maria Tjandra yang bekas guru.

Lulus Fakultas Hukum UI, Ester masuk ke dunia korps jubah hitam.

“Awalnya ingin jadi Hakim, dengan pemikiran naif-ku saat itu. Hakim yang memberikan keadilan. Dia bisa memutuskan perkara. Orang benar dibebaskan, orang salah dihukum. Tapi waktu aku mempelajari kehidupan Hakim baik secara hukum, politik dan ekonomi, ternyata jauh dari harapan,” kata Ester.

Ia tidak suka ketidakadilan. Sering melawan hukum apabila hukum berjalan diluar sistem.

Kegigihan Ester menjadi ‘pengacara rakyat’ membuatnya dianugerahi banyak penghargaan. Mulai dari Forum of Human Rights (1999), Yap Thiam Hien (2001) hingga Ashoka World Foundation (2003) yang bertaraf Internasional.

“Dulu sempat mau menolak Yap. Kan yang berjuang bukan hanya aku. Kalaupun muncul, itu karena gerakan. Semua membicarakan. Aku hanya satu unsur disana. Tapi teman-teman yang memaksa. Apabila wacana HAM yang diangkat, itu akan sangat menguntungkan perjuangan anti diskriminasi. Dan buat aku sendiri ke depan juga sangat baik. Orang akan menghargai saat aku membicarakan diskrimasi rasial atau masalah-masalah lain,” kata ibu tiga anak ini.

Setelah kerusuhan Mei 1998, masalah etnis Tionghoa ramai dibicarakan.

“Bahkan jadi komoditas. Kalaupun aku dianggap tokoh itu peran media. Padahal peranku hanya kecil sekali. Yang bicara pada tanggal yang sama ada beberapa. Tapi mungkin karena aku perempuan, jelas Tionghoa dan muda, masih 27 tahun. Aku juga dari LBH dan dianggap baru,” jelasnya lagi.

Ditembak Peluru Karet

Pernikahan Ester dengan Arnorld Fransiskus Purba, aktivis ‘garis keras’ membuat perjuangan wanita kelahiran 15 Januari 1971 ini kian runcing. Meski suaminya bukan etnis Cina, keduanya gigih membongkar dan membela para korban kerusuhan Mei. Purba meninggal tahun 2001 akibat livernya rusak.

“Bang Ucok (panggilan untuk suaminya) mengajar aku berani melawan struktur. Menghadapi tentara dan belajar melawan sistem dan hal-hal feodal,” kenang Ester.

Ia kembali menikah tahun 2005 dengan pria Jawa yang juga bukan etnis Tionghoa, Albertus Suryo WIcaksono. Pria ini justru mengajarkan Ester untuk  ‘mengakar ke bawah’.

“Memahami pikiran masyarakat bawah. Memahami kultur bangsa Indonesia. Jadi keduanya bertolak belakang, Satu ke atas, yang satu ke bawah. Membuatku jadi lebih lengkap,” katanya, bangga.

Bekerja melawan arus pastilah beresiko dengan nyawa.

“Orangtua sempat kuatir. Apalagi aku tidak pernah cerita apa yang aku alami,” ujar Ester.

Seperti ketika Ester jalan sendirian menuju LBH Jakarta dekat Megaria. Hari sudah gelap, sudah jam 7 malam. Tiba-tiba bahu kanannya perih. Ia terjatuh. Sepintas ia melihat dua pria berboncengan motor menenteng pistol sambil tersenyum.

“Sakit sekali seperti mau mati. Ternyata ada lebam dan luka di tengah. Aku menduga ditembak peluru karet. Teman-temanku banyak yang mengalami seperti itu, karena kebetulan waktu itu aku sedang menangani kasus orang-orang hilang. Aku biasa lembur. Suamiku masih di LBH,” kenang Ester.

Teman-teman memaksa Ester siaran pers. Esoknya, semua media cetak dan elektronik menulis kisahnya. Orang tuanya membaca.

“Mereka kaget dan bilang kalau sudah taruhan nyawa kenapa juga masih diteruskan. Tapi kemudian mereka berdoa dan telepon lagi, Papa bilang, rambut di kepalamu tidak akan jatuh kalau tanpa Tuhan mau. Kalau Tuhan mau, di rumah pun kita bisa meninggal. Aku bersyukur sekali,” ujar Ester, matanya berbinar bahagia.

Ester jadi kebal dengan terror. “Capek kalau dipikirin!”

Buku Yang Dilarang

Ester kesal. Bulan lalu satu bukunya dilarang terbit Komnas HAM.

“Padahal, buku itu murni dari hasil investigasi selama 1 tahun. Data dari Komnas yang saya ambil adalah hanya data TGPF (Tim Gabungan Pencari Fakta). Kemudian mereka mengkaim bahwa data itu semua milik mereka. Padahal data saya ada tambahan dari hasil investigasi selama 1 tahun. Lebih detail, lebih lengkap dan lebih luas,” ujar Ester tentang buku berjudul ‘Analisa Data dan Fakta Kasus Tragedi Kemanusiaan 13-15 Mei

Imbasnya, ia diprotes korban-korban kerusuhan Mei. “Karena mereka juga ikut dalam investigasi. Kesal kenapa bukunya kok dilarang.”

Dua buku lainnya berjudul ‘Reka Ulang Kerusuhan Mei 1998’ dan ‘Menatap Wajah Korban: Upaya Mendorong Penyelesaian Hukum Kejahatan Terhadap Kemanusiaan Dalam Peristiwa Kesusuhan Mei 1998

“Buku Menatap Wajah Korban, isinya sketsa para korban yang tidak punya foto. Miskin kota yang mati di bunuh di Plaza-plaza, kebanyakan tidak punya foto,” terang Ester.

Para pelukis, lanjut Ester, berbicara dengan keluarga korban. Mereka menggambarkan wajah korban, dan dilukis. Ada puluhan wajah yang muncul.

“Dan itu ternyata jadi trauma healing pada keluarganya. Jadi begitu mereka lihat sketsa wajah itu, muncul lagi kejadian itu. Mereka pada menangis. Tapi setelah itu mereka jadi kuat. Ini seperti terapi. Mereka merasa perjuangan masih panjang. Korban tidak hilang begitu saja,” lanjut Ester.

Buku Reka Ulang juga berupa sketsa kejadian. Misalnya di Glodok, di Pondok Indah dan puluhan titik lokasi. Minimal ada dua saksi dalam satu tempat. Masing-masing bercerita tentang kejadiannya, dan dibuat sketsa. Seperti rekonstruksi kejadian saat itu.

“Bukunya jadi penuh sketsa. Masyarakat Indonesia kan susah kalau membaca. Bahasa gambar lebih bisa diterima. Harapannya bisa rekonstruksi kejadian dan wajah pelaku. Kebanyakan korban tidak mengenali pelakunya. Ada yang mengenali tapi kesaksiannya tidak signifikan. Kebanyakan lari. Ada yang lihat tapi tidak ngeh karena banyak pelakunya,” kata Ester, lagi.

Aien Hisyam

*wawancara 12 Februari 2007*

June 21, 2013 - Posted by | Kisah, Profil Aktivis, Profil Pekerja Sosial, Profil Wanita

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